Give me a sign, tell me what to do.

Okay, I am totally lost in my life.
I don't know what I'm going to do after my diploma and it's really frustrating to keep thinking that I am not in the right track of the life I wanted.
It's tiring to try to strive in something you are not interested in.
Definitely, I get crushed down very easily. My determination has its own limit.
I like to do the best and be the best.
But I can't think of any good plan for my future and it's like the last year of poly already.

Hmm...
Never mind.
I shall not bore you with my rantings :)

You know what?
I did something stupid last night.
I thought of suicidal.
And I did many things to get myself hurt. Yes, I tortured myself.
This was the first time I've ever felt being pushed to the edge of a cliff.
I also realised that rage makes human beings do outrageous and psycho stuff.
I barely knew myself last night, it was horrifying.
Well known as being cheerful, I can't believe that I'd do such thing.
Something is so wrong with me...

Well, maybe some nice meal will do me good :)
Food always made me happy!

Done with this post for now 'cause dinner's ready :D
Blog soon...